Not a girl, not yet a women.
You didn’t catch Brittany’s movie “Crossroads”? I can’t believe it! I am somewhat ashamed to say that a friend and I drove an hour away to go see it because we didn’t want to be seen by any students watching it in our city. Oh yes, I PAID to see Crossroads. How is that for smashing my “street cred” into a million tiny pieces. (Ryan is shaking his head at me, staring at his wedding ring wondering if it was really worth it). Cast your stones of judgment, I can take it. Is it a cheesy girl movie?…then sign me up!
All that to say…Brittany’s smash hit (cough, cough) “Not a girl, not yet a women” is hitting a little close to home with Chloe lately. She is not going off to get married, travel the globe, or enter high school, she is just….JUST…going off to preschool in a few weeks. I used to snub my nose at moms that sent their kids to preschool. I mean you only get them for five years before they officially go to school, why would I waste one day of that sending my precious babies away. Well, I changed my mind when I saw how ridiculously smart Chloe is, how social she is, and how she deeply desires to learn. Yeah, I was a former teacher and I can definitely do it myself….but I know Chloe’s personality and 6 hours a week away from mama bear is going to be good for me and for her. I know she is going to LOVE it!
(****WARNING****Obnoxious parent about to kick in….force feeding you their kids’ pictures)
Can you look at this kid and not smile?
Her hair is ri-DUNKulously long for her age. She has no idea how blessed she is in the follicle department.
So Chloe and I have started butting heads a lot lately. You know where she turns around after politely telling me “NO” to my face so I pretend to give her an elbow to the temple because it kinda satisfies the desire I have to pop her head off for being disobedient…..TMI?
It just started a few weeks ago. She decided that if I said left, she would say right and so the game would continue. Her “timeout” spot on the floor has permanent butt prints. My favorite is when she is naughty she looks at me and says, “I better go sit in time out.” WIND.OUT.OF.MY.SAILS.
Eventually the toddler beast takes a rest and sweet, adorable, funny Chloe emerges and my heart swells with like once again. I definitely get the saying, “I love you, but I don’t like you right now.” I have read lots and lots of books on parenting. I am actually quite the whip cracker but lately she has broken me down…I mean to tears….you just don’t want to screw up your kid and these are those moments…THIS is when you PARENT a child’s spirit….DON’T SCREW UP KELLY!!!! I know you have to meet them at every fight and stay consistent even if the record has skipped a million times that day and you find yourself saying for a million and one times, “DO NOT take toys out of your brother’s hands!” You don’t back down even when your spirit is weary from the fight. Consistency always wins. Right, RIGHT?
So her first memory verse that she has memorized and yet conveniently forgets to apply is, “Be kind to one another.” (or she says “be kind to one an udder”) She has even told Bennett on many occasions he needed to be kinder too! I keep on keeping on, on this parenting train. Chugga chugga choo choo….up the hill and down again. It is truly the hardest and most rewarding job ever. It’s easy to screw up and yet when you nail it…it is beautiful to watch these little eternal beings blessing those around them with a loving, kind and gentle spirit.
(Do not judge our non-hanging, hanging swing with the mildew cushion. It is now hanging back up with a mold free butt-pad!)
So she will be heading out in a few weeks with a princess backback, piggy-tails blowing, and her mother’s love. It is so exciting to see her grow up and yet terrifying all at once. It reminds me how short life is and how insanely blessed we are to have two children to pour into in this lifetime. I don’t know how people raise children apart from the Lord. Prayer is ESSENTIAL for sanity and guidance. They truly are not our children and so we must live with an open hand…offering them back up to the Lord daily. It really isn’t “Terrible Two’s” There are just a few terrible moments. On the whole I definitely laugh myself through the day at the two knuckleheads we pro-created and I have the privilege of being home with.
I will brag on myself for one moment. I actually made the shirt Chloe is wearing.(blows a puff of hot air on fingernails and polishes them on shirt) The ironic part of it all is this shirt used to be a HUGE dress on her when she was a baby. This is the one and only time I have sewn a piece of clothing and I was heavily supervised by my mother-in-law….but I love how this dress has fit her for over two years now! She is a GIANT for her age (our kids got all of Ryan’s height)….so any piece of clothing that lasts more than a few months is a miracle!
Happy Weekend Everyone!